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What's My Favorite Color???

I am in a state of transition at the moment, I've realized. It's honestly kind of scary, but I'm curious to see what happens. As I'm currently 6 months pregnant, my body is changing of course, but I've noticed a lot more than that changing. 

    For example, and it was the change that made me realize all of this, I'm pretty sure my favorite color is pink now. My favorite color had been purple for years--everyone I know associates me with the moodiness and gravity of a deep purple--but I think I actually prefer shades of pink now. I told my husband about this and he was incredibly surprised! He had just purchased me some pink Gerber daisies and I was noticing how much joy they brought me every time I looked at them because they're beautiful and happy and in bloom! He was glad I was happy, but we're both surprised by this new development!

    This caused me to reflect a bit on myself. I am changing. I am listening to different music and getting sick of what I used to have on my playlist. I'm craving time in nature--I really want to be outside and in the canyons or sitting by the river, but previously, I've been quite the homebody and preferred to be indoors. I want to teach more--in church, in my areas of expertise, to my child--but I've always been terrified of speaking in front of people or sharing too much information and my thoughts. And there's many more things changing that I haven't quite figured out!

    As I'm writing this, my baby is kicking me in the belly button. She's still so small, but she's growing so much and I'm so excited to meet her. Pregnancy has been really hard on me, but I know she will be worth it and I'm so curious about the ways I'm becoming a new person as I bring her here. 

    I'm trying to be intentional as I notice these shifts by staying in touch with God and my body. While creating life, I recognize that I'm as sensitive to the Lord's voice as ever because my baby within me is in a space between heaven and earth. She is a form of direct connection to the Lord and it's so intriguing to think about. It has also made me realize that I will never be more like my Heavenly Parents than in a life creating state like this. And you can't know and become like God and stay the same person as before.

    So, I welcome this change. I want to claim the new identity that the Lord is giving me with love and excitement. I definitely have some anxiety about it, but I know I'm not doing it alone. My husband is also in a state of transition as he becomes a father and graduates from college. We're becoming something more than we've ever been before and there will certainly be growing pains, but knowing that it's happening makes me feel better. I trust that the Lord will guide us through it and bring us to even better things and I love that it will bring me and my husband even closer. Wish us luck on the journey of change. I hope that whatever transitions you're facing come with warmth and goodness in store. Life is incredible, wouldn't you agree? 

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